Monday, June 21, 2010
I'm Not Who I Was
My melancholy personality made me wait a long time and now I finally get this blog thing! Ok, so Hallie said that this week we should look back on things we've prayed for and think if its been answered in any way. So here is one of mine. At the end of 6th grade my parents said we were switching churchs (I wont go in to detail what happened there) and we were changing schools because of money. My siblings and I were so upset. We had been at the same school and church forever! I was confused with God and my parents were telling me it must be God's plan and later we'll understand. I hated meeting new people and at the time FBC Oviedo seemed VERY big compared to my old church. I prayed that someday I would understand. In a way I knew i had to wait a long time. Time has flown! I undestand now! I got to meet all of you and be in ECORE. The song "I'm not who I was" by Brandon Heath always reminds me of my switch and remembering how I was and what I am now. I am not who I was before! My relationship with Christ would have been terrible. I would never have talked to anyone I had never met before. If I had not switched churchs I wouldn't have had a great youth group experience. If I had not switched churchs I wouldn't have had met my multiple sisters in Christ. If some of you hadn't talked to me then and made me feel welcome I wouldn't have loved going to church. Back then it was "my parents are making me go to church" now its "I can't wait to spend time with other followers of Christ." I can't thank you sisters enough for all you've done in my life. I undertand why I switched churchs! School is still......school. I seem to be doing something totally different every year. Hallie was right that sometimes God says Yes, No, and Wait. For me it was to wait a while. Alot of other things I pray for now I still have to wait for. That's the time when God wants to teach us patience. Anyway ,you girls mean so much to me and I love you all!
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i should have just made this post a comment on Hallie's Faith post instead. A long post wasn't really needed. Sorry. i was really excited about writing a post. =D
ReplyDeleteYou are so awesome, Emily!
ReplyDeleteI agree!! You are awesome Emily!! Love you girl!!
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ReplyDeleteI was so blessed by the transparency you all showed. I have often felt that transparency and intentional living is essential in the body of Christ.
ReplyDeleteTransparency blesses not only ourselves but those around us - when we let others in, we realize that we are not alone. Plus, when we share our struggles, we let our brothers and sisters know that they are not alone either.
Living intentionally... the greatest joy is when you are persuing the purpose God intended for your live. He did not create us to muddle through this life but to make an impact for Him. :-)
Last night i was reading this book "The Call" i got at Leadership Rocks and it was talking about how community with other people was something God made, and how when God made man he said "Something's not good" and then he made woman, because man couldn't be alone. This is what i read last night:
ReplyDelete"First, none of us can rightfully say, 'All I need is God.' To do so is to reject other people as a channel of God's loving provision. Adam lived in perfection with a deeply personal knowledge of God. If anyone had the grounds to think his intimate relationship with the Creator was all he needed, Adam sure did... The second implication is closely related to the first. Just as we cannot claim, 'All I need is God,' we cannot truthfully convey the message, 'You only need God.' To do so is to communicate a message of condemnation: 'You should be able to take care of yourself without needing other people. If you still have needs, you don't have enough of Christ. If you were more consistent in your quiet time, if you had more faith, if you loved God with all your heart, soul, and mind, you wouldn't be needy.' As important and necessary as faith and quiet times and loving God are, God has chosen to involve people in meeting the needs of other people."
Last week I sometimes found myself not really connecting with God. I started thinking that 'If you only DID more for God...' and i thought that it was my fault that i felt kind of empty. But as soon as I told someone (i only really told one person) that i was feeling distant from God, people knew that I needed prayer and comforted me.
Emily, I really admire you for being so honest with us about what you were feeling, because it helped me understand that God was using PEOPLE to help me. How many times do we forget that God is IN us and our Christian friends?
Emily, I also admire you for being so honest. I am very guarded and have a hard time sharing my problems. You have encouraged me to be more open. I thank God you went to this trip with me!!!!
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